Happy July! I’m struggling a lot lately. Work is hella demanding. Life’s not going the way I want. I’m disappointing those closest in my life and I have no time to adequately deal with it, to the point that I fear I’m in real danger of never being able to reconcile those relationships. All I can do is manage what’s right in front of me. I keep saying things like, ‘if only I had more time’… but any little bit of time I get though, I do something else.

It’s not time I need. It’s courage to handle the trauma I keep hidden away from the world. Trauma that disguises itself as something else, like Halloween collecting, video gaming, Disneyland trips, TV binges (thank you The Bear, Season 3, for highlighting how broken I am), escapes to the movie theater, craft beer drinking with friends, reading instead of writing, and playing around my little Halloween web blog.

I need to deal with this trauma and that means less time to do the things I love. It’s time. So, as Halloween season approaches, not much else will change here. I will continue to post new haiku once a month, share a movie list, and show up sporadically on social media. I’m not sure yet if I’ll hold a 31 day celebration for Halloween in the same manner that I have in the past few years. If I do, it’s going to look very different. For now, Halloween pre-seaon has arrived with retail stores stocking the shelves with the latest and greatest Halloween trends. I will unpack my old stuff and display it like it was new.

The theme this month is Halloween time.

Halloween dreams
time stands still in your own thoughts
while life slips away